Soft Art of Jared & Darius From Jar of Rebuke

[IMAGE ID: A soft, slightly hazy pastel & colored pencil drawing of Jared & Darius sitting in the center of a green couch together. Darius is on the right & Jared is on the left. Their heads are touching & they are looking towards each other. Darius has his arm around Jared's shoulders & they are holding hands. Jared's other hand is resting in his own lap, & both Darius & Jared's legs are pulled up on the couch. Jared is shown as a Black person with medium-short curly hair, & Jared is shown as a white person with slightly shaggy brown hair. Both characters are wearing red hoodies, black pants, & white socks. Both are also blushing. Grove, the Hellhound which resembles something like a black lab, is standing in front of the couch with his head resting on the couch between Jared & Darius. The green couch is in front of a dark green wall with a painting of trees & a painting of Grove. On the right, there is a yellow lamp shedding light into the room. It sits on top of a wooden end table where a red mug also sits. On the right, there is another end table with a green mug on it. END ID]

I drew this SUPER SOFT art of Jared & Darius from Jar of Rebuke for Casper for their birthday, BUT I couldn’t post it before the episode came out bc I didn’t wanna spoil anything!!

Anyways, Jared & Darius are SUPER ADORABLE together & I feel like a quiet night in, just cuddling & chatting on the couch while Grove occasionally asks for attention, is exactly the kind of time they would enjoy spending together <3

Made with pastels & colored pencils! 🙂

20 Favorite Podcasts of 2020

A list of my top 20 favorite podcasts of 2020!

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I listened to way more podcasts in 2020 than any year before, I’m so lucky to be part of the cast & crew of several podcasts on this list, & I discovered so many new amazing podcasts, so I wanted to make a list of what they were & why I like them!

A lot of them are spooky in some way, a lot of them are edutainment, & many of them are queer. There is a THEME here haha. There were a few others I listened to, but I didn’t listen to enough episodes for them to make the cut, but considering how much I liked what I heard, they will likely be on another list at some point because I wanna recommend them to you too.

You can view this list on Podchaser here!

1. Jar of Rebuke

What It Is: Every 7th and 21st, join in Dr. Jared Hel’s audio journal entries as he works to re-discover his forgotten past and learns about all of the strange supernatural entities and anomalies for an organization called ‘The Enclosure’ within the small midwestern farm town of Wichton. With episodes based upon REAL legends and lore within the midwestern United States, follow along as Jared tries to figure out the secrets of the town as well as the secrets of his own identity.

Why I Like It: WELLLLLLL I’m part of the cast & crew for this podcast so MAYBE I’m biased haha & it is created by  my best friend & business partner Casper Oliver, BUT I love Jar of Rebuke because the protagonist, Dr. Jared Hel, is an amazing character who I really relate to & would totally wanna to be friends with if we lived in the same universe, there are so many other fantastic characters like Darius, Jamie, Holly, Milo, Ester, Laura, & SO. MANY. MORE. Plus a STELLAR cast of voice actors & a super awesome & intriguing storyline that has the perfect balance of humor, angst, & creepiness mixed with cryptids based on real Midwestern lore.

2. The Queer Thesperience

What It Is: “The Queer Thesperience” is a bi-weekly podcast featuring guests within the entertainment world who are also within the LGBT+ community to discuss their experiences, knowledge, and stories with your host Casper Oliver, a queer trans actor and podcaster.

Why I Like It: ALSO might be biased on this one because I’m part of the crew for this & was interviewed on the pilot episode of this show which is also hosted by Casper. But I love it because every episode gives me so many interesting insights & ideas from an INCREDIBLE selection of guests across a variety of performance mediums, & it’s so fascinating to hear about the experiences of such cool people! ALSO, it’s super queer & has to do with performing which I am Very Here For because that sums up me as a person haha~

3. Midnight Margaritas

What It Is: Hollis Coffin (he/him) & Casper Oliver (they/he) discuss different topics in witchcraft! From holidays to practices to specific tarot cards, once a month we do a video call and talk witchcraft! All while playing a drinking game with rules that we establish at the beginning of each episodes.
Find our hosts on social media at @coffinpolish & @casperolivervo.

Why I Like It: I’ve been a witch since I was 16, so I love anything witchy, & with two hilarious queer hosts joking around as they teach you about interesting lore & facts about witchy history, celebrations, different gods & goddesses, & more!

4. Georgie Romero is Done For

What It Is: Georgie Romero has risen from the grave, driven to solve the mystery of her former human life with the help of an inept witch and a cynical ghost. Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/georgieromeroisdonefor/support.

Why I Like It: Georgie Romero is Done For has the PERFECT combination of feel good & spooky. I love the character of Georgie – she’s determined & spunky, & her friends Hanako & Zabel, as well as all the other interesting & funny residents of their AU Florida, make this podcast a joy to listen to especially when I want something compelling & light-hearted. Also, I’m friends with several people on the cast & crew (including one upcoming cast member!) so that makes it even more fun to listen to!

5. Dos: After You

What It Is: Things changed after him. Deck has fallen for someone that isn’t human, and so he leaves a hungry home to find him. Todo cambió después de él. Deck se ha enamorado de alguien que no es humano, y deja así atrás una casa hambrienta para verle de nuevo. ¿Le estará esperando? El mundo ha cambiado… ¿Y él?Horror, urban fantasy LGBT+ audiodrama available in English & Spanish. Find out more about Dos: After You at https://dosafteryou.com/ and support the podcast by joining our patreon at www.patreon.com/dosafteryou.com Twitter: @dosafteryou Instagram: @dosafteryou_ Email at podcast@dosafteryou.com English Spanish Category: Fiction, Art, Fiction: Drama. Clean. Dos: After You is Licensed Attribution-NonCommercial-ShareAlike 4.0 International (CC BY-NC-ND 4.0)

Why I Like It: Created by an almost-entirely trans cast & crew, telling a dark & fascinating story about a man who has fallen in love with a god & trying to find him again, Dos: After You is both a dark love story AND a compelling suspense drama story that I am super excited to see what happens next in. Also, I think it’s really cool that each episode is released in both English AND Spanish, & episodes are usually only 5-7 minutes long, which makes it very easy to listen to (so no excuse NOT to listen to it if that plot sounds interesting to you, just sayin’~).

6. Across the Veil

What It Is: Best friends and amateur cryptozoologists Zelda and Emma discuss creepy creatures, strange happenings and spooky circumstances. Follow us on instagram @across.the.veil and twitter @acrosstheveil1 Support us by becoming a patron! https://www.patreon.com/acrosstheveil Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/acrosstheveil/support

Why I Like It: I’ve learned SO MUCH about cool cryptids & ghosts & whatnot from this podcast! I love how the hosts tackle primarily things I’ve never heard about before – as much as I adore Mothman, it’s really nice to hear about cryptids from other countries like the Pontianak or the Bukit Timah Monkey Man, as well as some lesser-known American cryptids like the Fresno Nightcrawler! The hosts cover the topics in a super informative while also super fun way, & watching them interact in their friendship is just a joy, they seem like friendship goals haha.

7. The Spooky Sapphic Storyteller

What It Is: A hybrid personal narrative/audio drama podcast exploring LGBTQ experiences and the paranormal.

Why I Like It: I’ve never listened to a podcast before that combines telling personal stories from the writer’s own life through fictional characters & their interactions with other characters & storylines within the podcast, but I LOVE it! Both the fictional story & the personal stories are both compelling, I totally wanna see what happens next for all the characters because I care about their stories (THERE ARE QUEER & TRANS GHOSTS!), & it’s also nice to hear about the experiences of other people who have gone through similar things that I have!

8. Less is Morgue

What It Is: Set in an alternate Tallahassee, FL where monsters, ghouls, and ghosts are the norm, our hosts Riley and Evelyn attempt to record and produce a podcast, often interrupted by everything from Blackbeard’s ghost to an irritating tech bro with a God complex.

Why I Like It: I haven’t had a chance to listen to that many episodes yet, but I’ve really enjoyed what I’ve heard so far! The love-hate friendship between the two protagonists (who host the “podcast within the podcast”) is hilarious & so much fun to watch, & I know that some of the more recent episodes address topics like mental health, so I’m super excited to see that! I also think it’s a fun universe this story takes place in, & also, QUEER & NONBINARY CHARACTERS!

9. Welcome to Night Vale

What It Is: Twice-monthly community updates for the small desert town of Night Vale, where every conspiracy theory is true. Turn on your radio and hide. Never listened before? It’s an ongoing radio show. Start with the current episode, and you’ll catch on in no time. Or, go right to Episode 1 if you wanna binge-listen.

Why I Like It: I just started listening to WTNV in 2019 after Casper recommended it to me & I, wanting to actually listen to interesting & good podcasts for a change after a long time of NOT listening to any, or any good ones at least, decided to give it a try. Well…….I ended up loving it, & here I am, 120 episodes later. I love WTNV because of interesting spooky stories, so so many great characters that I just love A Lot, & the way that it handles queerness just as something that *is*, without making a big deal out of it in a similar way to what Good Omens does!

10. Kakos Industries

What It Is: A deeply entertaining, R-rated, darkly satirical, sex-positive comedy audio drama with elements of horror. Congratulations! You are now a shareholder in Kakos Industries, a megacorporation that specializes in helping its clients to Do Evil Better. You are now entitled to listen to the shareholder announcements that keep you up to date on all of the advancements made in Evil and the bizarre occurrences inside of Kakos Industries itself. For fans of Welcome to Night Vale, Douglas Adams, Better Off Ted, the Venture Brothers, and Archer.

Why I Like It: Kakos Industries has kind of a similar vibe to WTNV, but it’s less spooky & more of an absurdist comedy about an organization that secretly runs a lot of the Evil in the world. I love absurdist things, & though I may be asexual, I still do enjoy me some dark & R-rated humor, so Kakos Industries has a great mix of both those things.

11. Sounds Fake But Okay

What It Is: A podcast where an aromantic asexual girl and a demisexual-straight girl talk about all things to do with love, relationships, sexuality, and pretty much anything else that they just don’t understand.

Why I Like It: I love podcasts where two friends talk about things they really find interesting (as you can see by many other podcasts on this list haha). And this one has two best friends talking about something I don’t hear about quite as much in podcasts – being asexual & aromantic! As an asexual (specifically, at this point I identify as demisexual but I might be gray asexual~) & aromantic person, so many of the topics covered on this podcast are things I’ve ALWAYS wondered, but never wanted to actually have to ask my friends, so I’ve learned a lot from it & felt less confused as an aroace person because of it.

12. A OK

What It Is: Weekly interviews with people on the asexual and aromantic spectrums.

Why I Like It: I know this podcast isn’t running anymore, & I haven’t heard many episodes of it yet, but I’ve loved what I’ve heard! It’s interviews with folx on the asexual or aromantic spectrums, & a lot of them have really cool & interesting insights about what it’s like & with their own experiences! Which I also like, & it reminds me how many ace & aro people there are in the world while also giving representation to those identities!

13. The Adventure Zone

What It Is: Justin, Travis and Griffin McElroy from My Brother, My Brother and Me have recruited their dad Clint for a campaign of high adventure. Join the McElroys as they find their fortune and slay an unconscionable number of … you know, kobolds or whatever in … The Adventure Zone.

Why I Like It: Any of the McElroy-related podcasts on this list were ALSO recommended to me by Casper (who, tbh probably actually recommended nearly everything on this list to me now that I think about it haha, they have SO MANY GOOD RECOMMENDATIONS for so many things~). This is probably my TOP comfort podcast to listen to, so I tend to listen to it a lot when my life gets stressful. I love it because it has a super good, funny, emotional, & fascinating storyline to follow, is made by some really funny & nice people, has AMAZING characters, &…I laugh SO MUCH to myself in my car at this podcast. I just love it a lot, definitely one of my favorites.

14. Shmanners

What It Is: Join husband Travis McElroy and wife Teresa McElroy every Friday and they’ll improve your etiquette week by week! Perplexed by thank you notes? Baffled by black tie? Dismayed by dinner parties? Worry no more, Shmanners has your answers!

Why I Like It: I *LOVE* edutainment podcasts & shows because I love learning & I love fun & humor, so when you put those those two things together, you end up with an excellent chance of me liking something. While I may have rebelled when my grandma tried to teach me manners as a kid, I am now an adult with some social anxiety, who really wants to be likeable, & who also loves learning cool facts about the histories of things & why we do certain things that we do. Shmanners has ALL of that & is hosted by some really great people.

15. Know It All

What It Is: Know It All is the Netflix podcast hosted by OnlyJayus, the internet’s favorite weird fact finder. Every other week, Jayus will look for the answers to all the questions that come up while watching Netflix shows.

Why I Like It: Short episodes that teach me cool & interesting facts about a variety of different random topics while also being a fun edutainment podcast by an (I’m fairly sure) queer host.

16. My Brother, My Brother And Me

What It Is: Free advice from three of the world’s most qualified, most related experts: Justin, Travis and Griffin McElroy. For one-half to three-quarters of an hour every Monday, we tell people how to live their lives, because we’re obviously doing such a great job of it so far.

Why I Like It: I have never heard anything by the McElroys that I didn’t like, & this is no exception. Three hilarious people give sometimes good but usually bad advice to people who’ve asked questions online, & hearing their answers is so hilarious, I’ve laughed at this podcast so many times & I haven’t even had a chance to listen to that many of the episodes yet.

17. Sawbones

What It Is: Join Dr. Sydnee McElroy and her husband Justin McElroy for a tour of all the dumb, bad, gross, weird and wrong ways we’ve tried to fix people.

Why I Like It: ANOTHER great edutainment podcast from the McElroys, this one talks about weird medical things people in the past did, & it is SUPER fascinating & also oftentimes, funny. People used to do so many seriously weird & sometimes even harmful things in the name of medicine, & I feel I’ve learned a lot about history in general & weird interesting medical facts which I then like info-dumping on my family from this podcast.

18. Cults

What It Is: Mystery. Manipulation. Murder. Cults are associated with all of these. But what really goes on inside a cult? More specifically, what goes on inside the minds of people who join cults and leaders who start them? Every Tuesday, Greg and Vanessa (co-hosts of the podcast Serial Killers) explore the history and psychology behind the most notorious cults. Cults is part of the Parcast Network and is a Cutler Media production.

Why I Like It: Cults are fascinating to me on a lot of levels in the same ways that serial killers are, & Parcast Network does a really good job of covering the stories of various cults while also the psychology as to why the cult leaders did what they did, & why their followers ended up following them.

19. Serial Killers

What It Is: Every Monday and Thursday, Serial Killers takes a psychological and entertaining approach to provide a rare glimpse into the mind, methods and madness of the most notorious serial killers with the hopes of better understanding their psychological profile. With the help of in-depth research, we delve deep into their lives and stories. Serial Killers is part of the Parcast Network and is a Cutler Media Production.

Why I Like It: Another great podcast from Parcast Network, this is a really interesting look at serial killers & their stories. I started listening to it when I was doing research on Jack the Ripper, & they do a really good job telling the stories in an interesting & compelling way, which is why I’ve continued to listen to it!

20. Lore

What It Is: Lore is a bi-weekly podcast (as well as a TV show and book series) about dark historical tales. Each episode explores the mysterious creatures, tragic events, and unusual places that fill the pages of history. Because sometimes the truth is more frightening than fiction.

Why I Like It: This usually delves into darker & spookier topics, but I love learning about lore & stories of creepy things like ghosts, hauntings, superstitions, cryptids, & more from the past. I always learn a lot from this podcast, & it’s given me a lot of interesting ideas to use in stories!

 

There you go, folx! You now have a list of 20 great podcasts I started listening to in 2020, & I hope you found at least one that sounded interesting to you!

THIS MONTH’S MEDIA: DECEMBER 2020

What I watched, listened to, read, & played in December 2020!

Wow, I actually watched some movies this month haha. I watched way more TV than I did the previous month, didn’t read any books, but I FINALLY got Spotify for the first time (& I love it so far!) so I’ve been listening to a lot more podcasts & music because it’s made that so much easier! Pretty sure this is the most podcasts I’ve ever listened to in a month~

TV

  1. Brian David Gilbert Unraveled: “I Wasted 3 Weeks of My Life Finding Castlevania’s Hottest Monster”, “Smash Bros Owes Millions of Dollars in OSHA Violations”, “Understanding Kingdom Hearts (& Every Other Story)”, “The Perfect PokeRap”, “We Made All 78 Breath of the Wild Recipes in One Day”, “Calculate Your Pet’s HP With My 100% Legitimate Formula”, “I Used the Sims to Perfect My Apartment”
  2. BuzzFeed Unsolved: Supernatural: S1. EP 3, 4, 5, 6
  3. New Scooby Doo Mysteries: S1 EP. 1
  4. Ouran High School Host Club: S1 EP. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7
  5. Steven Universe: S3: EP. 3, 4
  6. Transformers: Prime S2: EP. 7
  7. The Try Guys: Without a Recipe: “Pie”, “Cake”, “Cheesecake”
  8. Worth It: “$5 Fried Chicken Sandwich Vs. $20 Fried Chicken Sandwich”, “Australia Marathon”

Total: 27 Episodes

BOOKS

Total: 0 Books

MOVIES & DOCUMENTARIES

  1. Minions Holiday Special
  2. Rosaline
  3. Love, Simon
  4. A Charlie Brown Christmas*
  5. How the Grinch Stole Christmas*
  6. How to Not Be Seen: A Fucking Didactic Educational .MOV File
  7. McElroys Candlenights 2020
  8. The Polar Express*
  9. Ice Age: The Meltdown

Total: 9 Movies & Documentaries

PODCASTS

  1. Across the Veil – The Fresno Nightcrawlers, The Grunch of New Orleans, The Bukit Timah Monkey Man, The Hauntings of General Wayne Inn, The Pontianak, The Baobhan Sith, The Last Witch of Scotland, The Bell Witch, Halloween Horrors & Samhain Spookies
  2. The Adventure Zone: Episodes 62, 63, 64
  3. A OK: 2
  4. BirdNote: Alexander Archipelago, Yogi Berra’s Wit & Wisdom, An Annual Trek to a Lek, Acorn Woodpecker, Tony Angell Reflects on Nature, White-Browned Coucal, Call of the Sage-Grouse, Here Come the Merlins
  5. Critical Role: Vox Machina Ep. (1)
  6. Cults: Sect of Nacozari Parts 1 & 2,
  7. Dos: After You: S1 Ep. 15, 16, 17, 18, 19
  8. Georgie Romaro is Done For: (11)
  9. The Great American Scream: 41 – Slenderman
  10. Jar of Rebuke: Episodes 8, 9
  11. Kakos Industries: S1 Episodes 13
  12. Know it All: Is Love Blind, What’s on the Kids Menu, Can Humans Be Trained Like Animals, Tiger King 
  13. Less is Morgue – Ep. 101, 102, 103, 104
  14. Light Hearts Podcast – EPs. Opening the Door With Tal, Evan, & Caroline
  15. Lore: Episodes 18, 19, 20
  16. MBMBAM: Episodes 5, 6
  17. Midnight Margaritas: 2: Hestia
  18. The Queer Thesperience: Jason Larock, Kevin R. Free
  19. Sawbones: Episodes: Trepanation, Mercury, 
  20. Schmanners: Office Etiquette
  21. Serial Killers: The Giggling Granny Parts 1 & 2, The Casanova Killer Parts 1 & 2, The Grim Sleeper Parts 1 & 2
  22. Serial Killing: A Podcast: (xxx)
  23. Sounds Fake But Okay: Ep. 2
  24. The Spooky Sapphic Storyteller: 8, 9, 10, 11
  25. Strange Heartland: Ep. 2 – Blood Road
  26. Titular Characters: Issue #9 – Murder Mystery Theater & the Trans Experience, Queer Media with Casper Oliver
  27. Welcome to Night Vale: Episodes 111, 112, 113, 114, 115, 116, 117

Total: 72 Podcast Episodes

ALBUMS

  1. VELVET by Adam Lambert
  2. The Black Parade by My Chemical Romance
  3. Flamboyant by Dorian Electra*
  4. Can’t Buy a Thrill by Steely Dan*
  5. Meet the Beatles by The Beatles* 
  6. Loner by Missio
  7. My Agenda by Dorian Electra
  8. This Christmas by 98 Degrees*
  9. War Babies by Hall & Oates*
  10. Can’t Buy a Thrill by Steely Dan*
  11. Love, Love, Love by Jess Penner

Total: 11 Albums

GAMES

  1. Dig Dug* (ongoing)
  2. Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney

Total: 2 Games

*Things marked with the asterisk mean it’s something I’ve read/watched/listened to before, everything else is new to me! 

I Want to Make the Way I Blog Feel Authentic Again

A painting of an orange cat with green eyes lying down with its paws folded under it.

I want to start blogging more again.

I’ve thought about this for the past few weeks, mostly in terms of what sort of content I’d actually like to post. For a LONG time in the past, I tried to model my style of blogging, & the content of what I wrote about around other blogs I enjoyed reading at the time. Which isn’t inherently a BAD thing, it’s just that now when I read those same blogs, I’m put off by how salesy & oftentimes contrived they were?

If it works for those people, it works & I’m not demonizing them as a group, but I will say I’ve started to find those sorts of blogs off-putting. Ones which are overly-optimized, & whether or not they preach “authenticity”, they usually end up being a VERY carefully curated look at someone’s life. The type where the blogger becomes some sort of guru & starts having “retreats” & charging $1000 for an online course?

Ehhhhhhh, gonna pass.

I honesty used to look up to that sort of blogger & aspired to be like them, & be able to sell expensive courses, & perhaps some things can still be learned from them as far as marketing, but that’s just not the direction I want to head in, I think that’s boring & is of no interest to me now.

You know what blog I really still hold in high regard, even though it’s no longer being updated & is now an archive?

Rookie Mag.

I have VERY fond memories of reading Rookie as a teen & in my early 20’s. They had so many things I liked, without ever being phony or salesy. They sold stuff, but they never came off as a greasy used car salesman trying to manipulate people into buying their expensive online course with a VERY long sales page filled with 33 testimonials about why they course was gonna ~ChAnGe YoUr LiFe~.

They had fashion photos, & poetry, & stories about peoples’ lives that were interesting or that I could relate to. There were photoshoots with such unique aesthetics, & very creative & awesome tutorials, & opinions about things that mattered a lot to me. They had super good art & illustrations, evocative & talented writing, & a sort of inherent authenticity & celebration of the joy of self-exploration that filled me with such hope & excitement.

Rookie Mag was FUN.

Will my blog be that level of amazing? Maybe not, but rather than looking up to people I just don’t respect as much anymore, I’m going to take inspiration for my blog, & my definition of what “blogging” should be, from something I still consider to be unique & magical instead of sleek & phony.

– Ashlee 🐸

THIS MONTH’S MEDIA: NOVEMBER 2020

What I watched, listened to, read, & played in November 2020!

Oof, I really didn’t watch or listen to a lot of stuff this month haha. I was stressed for a lot of the month, so I ended up just listening to a lot of “The Adventure Zone” because it’s a major comfort show for me!! But I enjoyed all the things I consumed, & I FINALLY watched “The Rocky Horror Picture Show” for the VERY FIRST TIME!!!

TV

  1. Transformers: Prime S2: EP. 6
  2. Steven Universe: S3: EP. 2
  3. Grimm: S1: EP. 1, 2, 4, 5

Total: 6 Episodes

BOOKS

  1. Frogs: A Chorus of Colors by Deborah A. Behler & John L. Behler
  2. Wild Edible Mushrooms: Tips & Recipes for Every Mushroom Hunter by Hope H. Miller
  3. Kingdom Classification: Molds, Mushrooms, & Other Fungi
  4. Soar to Success: Mountain Gorillas in Danger by Rita Ritchie
  5. *Reader’s Digest – Animal Closeups: Penguins: A Funny Bird by Beatrice Fontanel

Total: 5 Books

MOVIES & DOCUMENTARIES

  1. The Rocky Horror Picture Show

Total: 1 Movies & Documentaries

PODCASTS

  1. The Adventure Zone: Episodes 52, 53, 54, 55, 56, 57, 58, 59, 60, 61
  2. Welcome to Night Vale: Episodes 101, 102, 103, 104, 105, 106, 107, 108, 109, 110
  3. The Queer Thesperience: Peaches Christ, Kaylie Horowitz, Dani Ernewein
    (I design the promotional graphics for this podcast so….you should totally check this podcast out haha)
  4. Cults: Episodes 22, 23
  5. Jar of Rebuke: Episodes 6, 7
    (I ALSO design the promotional graphics for this podcast & read the end credits so….you should also check out this one lol)
  6. The Spooky Sapphic Storyteller: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7
  7. A OK: EP. 1
  8. The Great American Scream: 37 (Cryptids)
  9. Midnight Margaritas: Samhain
    (Another great podcast that my dear friend Casper Oliver is a co-host on!!!)
  10. Papillon Podcast: Halloween Edition: Jar of Rebuke

Total: 38 Podcast Episodes

ALBUMS

  1. Rhino Hi-Five: They Might Be Giants

Total: 1 Albums

GAMES

  1. *Dig Dug (ongoing)

Total: 1 Games

*Things marked with the asterisk mean it’s something I’ve read/watched/listened to before, everything else is new to me! 

THIS MONTH’S MEDIA: OCTOBER 2020

What I watched, listened to, read, & played in October 2020!

I finally read The Great Gatsby for the first time haha & I got to listen to A LOT of podcasts! 🙂

TV

  1. Transformers: Prime S2: EP. 3, 4, 5
  2. Steven Universe: S2 EP. 21, 22, S3: EP. 1
  3. Drunk History: S1: EP. 1
  4. BuzzFeed Unsolved: Supernatural: S1. EP 1, 2
  5. Over the Garden Wall: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10

Total: 20 Episodes

BOOKS

  1. The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
  2. The Tale of Mrs. Tiggy-Winkle by Beatrix Potter*

Total: 2 Books

MOVIES & DOCUMENTARIES

  1. RED 2*
  2. Halloweentown*

Total: 2 Movies & Documentaries

PODCASTS

  1. The Adventure Zone: Episodes 49, 50, 51
  2. Welcome to Night Vale: Episodes 91, 92, 93, 94, 95, 96, 97, 98, 99, 100
  3. Schmanners: Episodes 9, 10, 11, 12
  4. Serial Killing: A Podcast: Peter Kurten
  5. Kakos Industries: S1 Episodes 8, 9, 10, 11, 12
  6. Sawbones: Episodes: Horseshoe Crabs 
  7. The Queer Thesperience: HappiTV
    (I design the promotional graphics for this podcast so….you should totally check this podcast out haha)
  8. Cults: Episodes 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21
  9. Serial Killers: (3)
  10. Lore: Episodes 12. 13, 14, 15, 16, 17
  11. MBMBAM: Episodes 3, 4
  12. Jar of Rebuke: Episodes 4, 5
    (I ALSO design the promotional graphics for this podcast & read the end credits so….you should also check out this one lol)
  13. Critical Role: Vox Machina Ep. (1)
  14. Georgie Romaro is Done For: Ep. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10
  15. Dos: After You: S1 Ep. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8. 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14
  16. Sounds Fake But Okay: Ep. 1
  17. Strange Heartland: Ep. “Home Sweet Home”, “Mary Bell: 10 Year Old Serial Killer”

Total: 69 Podcast Episodes

ALBUMS

Total: 0 Albums

GAMES

  1. Dig Dug (ongoing)

Total: 1 Games

*Things marked with the asterisk mean it’s something I’ve read/watched/listened to before, everything else is new to me! 

THIS MONTH’S MEDIA: SEPTEMBER 2020

What I watched, listened to, read, & played in September 2020!

I didn’t get to read as much as I would have liked this month, but I got to listen to plenty of podcasts! 🙂

TV

  1. Transformers: Prime S2: EP. 2
  2. Steven Universe: S2 EP. 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20

Total: 9 Episodes

BOOKS

  1. Salmon by Sylvia M James
  2. What Was Stonewall? By Nico Medina
  3. My Neck Hurts: Nonsurgical Treatments for Neck & Upper Back Pain by Martin T. Taylor

Total: 3 Books

MOVIES & DOCUMENTARIES

  1. Lemony Snicket’s A Series of Unfortunate Events

Total: 1 Movies & Documentaries

PODCASTS

  1. The Adventure Zone: Episodes 39, 40, 41, 42, 43, 44, 45, 46, 47, 48
  2. Welcome to Night Vale: Episodes 88, 89, 90
  3. Schmanners: Episodes 4, 5, 6, 7, 8
  4. Kakos Industries: S1 Episodes 7,
  5. The Queer Thesperience: Episode 4, 5, 6
    (I design the promotional graphics for this podcast so….you should totally check this podcast out haha)
  6. Cults: Episodes 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14
  7. Serial Killers: 1, 2
  8. Lore: Episodes 7, 8, 9, 10, 11
  9. MBMBAM: Episodes 2
  10. Jar of Rebuke: Episodes 2, 3
    (I ALSO design the promotional graphics for this podcast & read the end credits so….you should also check out this one lol)
  11. Critical Role: Vox Machina Ep. 0

Total: 41 Podcast Episodes

ALBUMS

Total: 0 Albums

 

GAMES

  1. FaeFever by Monkey Wizard Entertainment

Total: 1 Games

THIS MONTH’S MEDIA: AUGUST 2020

I always feel like I’m forgetting stuff on these lists haha so something might be missing, but here it is!

TV

  1. Transformers: Prime S1 25, 26; S2: 1 
  2. Steven Universe: S2 EP. 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12
  3. My Hero Academia: S1: 5
  4. Bob’s Burgers: S3: 17
  5. Tiny Creatures: S1: Episodes “Arizona”

Total: 16 Episodes

BOOKS

  1. Fashions of a Decade: The 1940’s by Patricia Baker
  2. The Revolution of Birdie Raldolph by Brandy Colbert
  3. Little Golden Books: Bunnies’ ABC by Garth Williams
  4. Little Golden Books: My First Counting Book by Lilian Moore
  5. My Little Golden Book of Dogs by Jean Lewis
  6. Maggie to the Rescue by Ari Hunt
  7. If the Dinosaurs Came Back by Bernard Most
  8. Night-Night, Baby Mousling by Cara
  9. Quick as a Cricket by Audrey Wood
  10. Bunnicula by James Howe
  11. Swimmy by Leo Lionni
  12. Puppy Tales (Mother Goose Book by multiple authors)
  13. Growing Vegetable Soup by Lois Ehlert
  14. Sing a Song of People by Lois Lenski
  15. The Little White Owl by Tracey Corderoy & Jane Chapman

Total: 15 Books

MOVIES & DOCUMENTARIES

  1. Howl’s Moving Castle
  2. RED

Total: 2 Movies & Documentaries

PODCASTS

  1. The Adventure Zone: Episodes 34, 35, 36, 37, 38
  2. Welcome to Night Vale: Episodes 82, 83, 84, 85, 86, 87
  3. Kakos Industries: S1 Episodes 4, 5, 6
  4. The Queer Thesperience: Episode 3
    (I design the promotional graphics for this podcast so….you should totally check this podcast out haha)
  5. Cults: Episodes 2, 3, 4, 5, 6
  6. Serial Killers: 176
  7. Lore: Episodes 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6
  8. My Brother, My Brother, & Me: Episodes 1
  9. Jar of Rebuke: Episodes 1
    (I ALSO design the promotional graphics for this podcast & read the end credits so….you should also check out this one lol)

Total: 29 Podcast Episodes

ALBUMS

Total: 0 Albums

THIS MONTH’S MEDIA: JULY 2020

Hey! So this previous month, I *FINALLY* actually tracked all the media I consumed (shows, podcasts, books, etc) in the month of July! And because I’m a nerd for tracking things AND a nerd for making lists, I would like to share with y’all what media I enjoyed during this past month 🙂

TV

  1. Transformers: Prime S1 EP. 15 – S1 EP. 24
  2. Steven Universe: S2 EP. 2, 3

Total: 12 Episodes

BOOKS

  1. The Letter Q by Sara Moon
  2. First Drawings: Dinosaurs by Katie Lajiness
  3. A Little Book of Sloth by Lucy Cooke
  4. My First Picture Dictionary by Katherine Howard
  5. Operation Beautiful: Transforming the Way You See Yourself One Post-It Note at a Time by Caitlin Boyle
  6. The Lovables & the Kingdom of Self-Esteem by Diane Loomans
  7. The Art of Steampunk by Art Donavan

Total: 7 Books

MOVIES & DOCUMENTARIES

  1. Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse
  2. Ratatouille
  3. Harry Potter & the Prisoner of Azkaban
  4. Unmasking Jack the Ripper
  5. 13th

Total: 5 Movies & Documentaries

PODCASTS

  1. The Adventure Zone: Episodes 27, 28, 29, 30
  2. Welcome to Night Vale: Episodes 77, 78, 79, 80, 81
  3. Schmanners: Episodes 3, 216
  4. Serial Killing: A Podcast – Episode “Jack the Ripper”, “Hello Kitty Murder”, “The True Story Behind ‘Silence of the Lambs’”
  5. Kakos Industries: S1 Episode 1, 2, 3
  6. Sawbones: Episodes 1
  7. The Queer Thesperience: Episodes 1, 2
    (I design the promotional graphics for this podcast so….you should totally check this podcast out haha)
  8. Cults: Episode 1
  9. Serial Killers: Ep. 168 “Hannibal Lecter of Sweden – Sture Bergwall”

Total: 22 Podcast Episodes

ALBUMS

  1. Fleet Foxes – Fleet Foxes
  2. Haus Party Pt. 2 – Todrick Hall
  3. Growing in the Cold – Jess Penner
  4. ‘Cuz I Love You – Lizzo

Total: 4 Albums

2010 vs 2020, & The Things I Wish I Could Tell 16-Year-Old Me

Please don’t give up. One day, you really do find all the things you’re looking for.

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I saw this trend of comparing where you were 10 years ago & where you are now &……HOOOOOOO BOY A LOT HAS CHANGED & I HAVE COME SUPER FAR FROM WHERE I WAS BACK THEN.

And for that, I am really, really proud of myself.

(TW: depression, mention of suicidal thoughts)

10 years ago I was 16 & struggling with severe depression as the result of my undiagnosed & untreated mental illnesses, including bipolar & BPD.

I had literally ZERO friends as a result of my social difficulties & the fact I didn’t have a job nor go to school (I was homeschooled), & my family was too poor to afford any extra activities, so I was at home all the time except for shopping trips for YEARS.

I felt utterly invisible & almost constantly hopeless about my future, & I suffered from frequent intrusive & suicidal thoughts as well as intense anxiety.

I also was struggling with a lot of guilt, anxiety, & shame about my gender & sexuality.

I was terrified & hopeless over the fact I didn’t think I would ever have real friends or actually be happy. Getting through every day was a struggle, & because of stigma against mental illness in my family, I literally had NO ONE I could tell about my feelings except venting to strangers on the internet.

When I turned 25, I realized that 16-year-old me hadn’t really expected they’d even MAKE it to 25, & that makes me sad now because since then, things have become SO SO GOOD.

It really DID get better, ESPECIALLY over the past year. I have an amazing group of friends which every day I’m just so grateful I’ve got these folks in my life, I’m making new friends all the time, I’m out as a bisexual & aromantic demiboy to most of the people I know including my family & I’m accepted for it, I’m working on getting low-dose testosterone, I have an amazing job that I love, I’m ACTUALLY a professional actor & artist who’s working on so MANY exciting projects, I don’t feel invisible usually anymore & I have SO MUCH HOPE for my future, I finally started going to therapy, & I’m finally finding the mental health meds that are making a huge difference in how I feel.

I feel so loved & supported by everyone in my life, & I’m so, SO glad to be where I am today ❤️.

Things really did get better, & if I could go back in time & tell my 16-year-old self something, more than anything I’d just really like them to know that all the things they think they’re never gonna have? A job they love? Amazing friends? Acceptance from my family? Treatment for my mental illnesses? True happiness?

They find ALL of that & then some, & it’s so so much better than they imagined it would be.

…Because you see, they don’t just grow up & make it & survive.

It takes a while, & it’s still not perfect, but they grow up, & make it, & THRIVE.

❤️❤️❤️