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Tag: love

  • you’ve always been good enough for me

    you've always been good enough for me // Ashlee Craft / Assemblage, Issue 3

    you’ve always been good enough for me,
    always
    & I’ve always been good enough for you
    even all those times I was certain
    that I’d made the biggest mistake or surely was the most
    worthless, useless person who couldn’t do anything right
    & would never amount to anything
    even when I couldn’t see it in myself,
    you showed me that I was worth it

    I never thought things would be better for me
    I never thought I deserved better

    I would look in the mirror & see something
    ugly, someone ugly who should hide their face
    & try to be invisible; living in shadows, dwelling in
    darkness; but you gently lifted my chin up
    to face the sun
    & finally made me believe that in all ways,
    I was good enough,
    always good enough

  • blackberry flowers

    Blackberry Flowers - Ashlee Craft // ashleecraft.com

    forgotten / I saw you standing off to the side

    trying to pretend that you couldn’t see the sun / flowers
    along the side of the trail, you walked so far ahead of me
    I had to squint into the sun to see you / it was how you wanted it
    to be; running away, like you always did / you stopped
    & bent down to look at the flowers

    I approached you slowly / a shadow from the trees above us
    reflected down onto you, all I saw was your fragile & shatterable self
    confidence was hanging by a thread & I felt a greater sense of pity
    & a greater sense of nurturing towards you than I previously knew
    then fear made sense to me / you were afraid of losing me to the wind & the storms
    & yet I was afraid of losing you to the night & the words
    of everyone who tried to bring you down

    you sat there still & silent / looking towards the flowers
    but not at them / “I’m sorry.” I told you
    the breeze blew & the flowers trembled, then the breeze came to a close
    & the sunlight fell still & rested upon the petals
    “it’s all going to be okay.” I said gently to you “everything is going to be fine.”

  • the beams of stars

    Palmettos by Ashlee Craft // ashleecraft.com


    singularity happenstance replicated patterns on wood silk nonsensical rants over cups of coffee / I walk everywhere with you & we physically don’t go anywhere but mentally we are everything reaching out into the void of space across the endless miles between us & touching each others’ souls / & it is in this space, this emptiness, this nothingness that I find I am able to be myself, to see myself reflected in the beams of stars, & it is all there, & all beautiful, & I can hold it in the palm of my hands & do nothing, & the star beams of light keep flooding out into the wilderness, & illuminating everything radiant & so beautiful, & I am knowing that it is there, & right to be there, & star beams are branching out from my hands & traveling the miles or maybe its only a few feet between us & the star beams are branching out & they find you there, the light is reaching from my hands into yours, & so that even when we are far from each other, we see the same sun & live in the same minutes & seconds & hours, & this is how we find each other