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  • Here’s Why Happiness is the Best Revenge – The Ashlee Craft Show – Episode 042 – Motivation

    In Episode 042 of The Ashlee Craft Show, I read my article “Here’s Why Happiness is the Best Revenge” & tell you WHY using your success as revenge against those who’ve wronged you is about YOU, & not about them.

    READ THE ORIGINAL ARTICLE HERE →

  • “Easter” – The Ashlee Craft Show – Episode 041 – Poetry

    In Episode 041 of The Ashlee Craft Show, I read a poem from my Spring poetry book called “Easter”. Also, I’m wearing Easter egg novelty socks & carrot-shaped earrings!

    SPRING POETRY BOOK

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    EASTER

    after spring cleaning is completed & the house is refreshed / opening the windows to clean out the air trapped in here by the winds of winter / running free thru fields / then coming back home to decorate for Easter
    slowly removing the colorful Easter basket from the cardboard box in the garage & setting the basket, woven with pink & yellow straw, upon the black table in the corner / the sound of crinkling & plastic being torn, opening the bag of Easter grass & arranging the yellow cellophane in the bottom / tying a ribbon around the basket’s handle & smiling back at it
    next removing the sentimental Easter tree from the box / the pale pink bark peeling, the metal branches bent at odd angles, but rearranging these & remembering when I was a child & I decorated these same branches with these sacred ornaments, souvenirs from memory’s road / separating the ornaments & untangling the branches & the small threads tied to the tops of them / picking a random but intentionally beautiful spot for each one, seeing these brilliant branches covered with Easter eggs, baby rabbits of pink & green & blue & yellow, sparkling eggs, bird houses, fuzzy yellow chicks, carrots, baskets, joy / seeing them filled with joy
    lastly, removing the decorations given to me by my Grandmother & setting them upon the shelves / spreading the bright beauty of spring around on the walls, on the tables, on shelves, on the floor, anywhere there is room for them / planting seeds in terra cotta flower pots outside & placing the gently watered soil in the sunrays on my porch / spreading around the joy of this new beginning / spring is beginning once again / the sun shining once again

  • THE CLEAR COOL STARS WERE RADIANT – The Ashlee Craft Show – Episode 040 – Poetry

    I read a poem from “A Ship Onto a Sea of Hope” in Episode 040, titled “THE CLEAR COOL STARS WERE RADIANT”.

    A SHIP ONTO A SEA OF HOPE
    A SHIP ONTO A SEA OF HOPE SAMPLE

     

    THE CLEAR COOL STARS WERE RADIANT

    I stepped off into the clear cool stars
    walking on them. They called out to
    me. They felt the same way it does
    stepping off barefoot into dewy grass
    at 1 AM. The decisions you make are the
    rope leading you either to the edge of
    the bridge or the safe green pastures. They are
    what compels you.

    She looked at me with sea-green
    eyes. I saw aqua & turquoise rain
    clouds flourishing in the distance.
    They whispered to me by the tide-pool
    room rock ledges &
    familiar evocative songs on the
    radio. “You are going to be
    okay.”

  • AT THE END OF THE DAY THERE ARE MORE GOOD NIGHTS – The Ashlee Craft Show – Episode 039 – Poetry

    I read a poem from my 2017 poetry book “The Walls Were Gray” in Episode 039 of The Ashlee Craft Show!

    THE WALLS WERE GRAY :: http://amzn.to/2FTjQH5

     

    AT THE END OF THE DAY, THERE ARE MORE GOOD NIGHTS

    I took deep breaths & tried to calm the fluttering screaming inside / it was getting dark out / I opened the windows & bathed myself in fresh air turning the music up loud & listening to the wind / at the stoplight I watched the lights of cars on the evening road & felt the knowledge that I could do anything, any of it / that there would be more nights in this weather, driving, comforted by the fact that I was finding my way / I shamelessly danced even if people were looking / the music & gentle lights continued – glowing pathway spread before me yellowbrick road / it was deeply sad & darkly depressing but somehow deeply shining with hope & the golden warm light of PROGRESS / the first words of the new poem & the new beginning & new places & the unknown road & the unknown open road & the first words said by the person I was becoming & the soul of the person I was becoming & the overarching future & deep brilliant hope & a thousand things I had no names for / I saw a kid playing with a toy car on the sidewalk in the dark, & I breathed in deeply, & felt fresh air on my skin & the warm humidity of evening, & saw the road really illuminated by the street lamps like lighthouses / & it reminded me of something I used to know / I thought about how there would be so many more nights like this, how this wasn’t really the ending / & I reminded myself that I would make it through this, & be better off for it / that is how I thrive

  • “Prelude” – The Ashlee Craft Show – Episode 038 – Poetry

    In Episode 038, I read a poem from my book “So Long, Lonesome Place” called “Prelude”. Enjoy!

    SO LONG, LONESOME PLACE

  • How To Make Meditation Fun & Simple (Now It’s Not Boring Anymore!)

    Woman Meditating Outdoors Peacefully

    Meditation was boring AF.
    I liked it at one point. When I was a kid, I was into all sorts of things spiritual & metaphysical. We did this meditation DVD my mom had & I thought it was the coolest thing ever. You did some general meditation stuff for the first part. But the best part (& the reason I was so excited about it) was this part where you spit on your finger & touched it to the center of your forehead (your third eye).
    Then from that spot, you mentally went back into your skull, into the depths of your mind, & inside your mind you saw all this white or purple light. I was obsessed with this because it went along with all the energy-healing & angels stuff I was obsessed with when I was 11 or 12. I thought it was amazing.
    Meditation Energy Flowing From Head Through Body
    But as I grew up, I stopped meditating. It stopped being a priority, & I forgot about it.
    Then, when I tried it again, it was SO BORING.
    Blonde Woman Meditating & Peeking Around
    From about the age of 16 all the way up until 22 or 23, I didn’t really meditate. We didn’t own the DVD we used when I was a kid, so I had to find other ways to meditate. I went on the Internet & did what the articles said.
    Numerous times I tried. I really did. I tried to make it a habit.
    “Close your eyes & don’t think about anything.” That was supposed to be peaceful.
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    BUT IT WAS SO BORING.
    I couldn’t stand it. I’d set a timer for ten minutes or something. Close my eyes, empty my mind. But my mind would be thinking about everything else, I’d get antsy sitting still & not thinking about anything, & I might try for a few days in a row before I gave up. My mind LIKES thinking. And meditation didn’t make me feel any special way.
    Chicken Running After Squirrel
    Logically, I knew I should be meditating. Everyone went on & on about how healthy & awesome it was. EVERYONE. Every book, every magazine, every celebrity, every article. It was included in every successful person’s morning routine. Tony Robbins was obsessed with it. Even Pete Carroll, coach for the Seattle Seahawks (aka my favorite football team) was obsessed with it.
    Simon Cowell Bored Blinking
    Lisa Kudrow
    Maybe it was me. Maybe meditation was actually awesome, but my brain was wired weird & therefore hated it. Maybe everyone else was boring & they liked being bored & not thinking about anything & sitting still for a long time. But I kept thinking it must be my problem.
    I guess I just wasn’t the kind of person who meditated.
    But I was missing out on something other people got a lot of value from! MISSING OUT! It was like everyone was part of some secret meditation club & I was left out.
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    & everyone STILL WAS going on about how good for you it was.
    One day, I came across an email newsletter from author & spiritual teacher Tess Whitehurst last July. In her newsletter (titled “6 Magical Secrets to Focus, Productivity, and Success”), she talked about meditation & Insight Timer, this awesome free app she recommended for meditation.
    Free app?
    & I could do it for as little as five minutes a day?
    Snape from Harry Potter Shrugging
    I downloaded the app. I had nothing to lose. If I didn’t like it, I could just delete the app & write off meditation again.
    But I decided to try it, because I like experiments. Also, I had nothing to lose except maybe five minutes.
    The app was easy to use. You could pick a nature sound to listen to while you meditated (like a waterfall, rain shower, or the ocean). Then you set the timer & it had a gentle bell that went off when the timer was done, but you could meditate longer if you wanted. Five minutes wasn’t that long. I figured I could handle that.
    This is when I learned something MAGICAL about meditation.

    IT DOESN’T HAVE TO BE BORING.

    IT DOESN’T HAVE TO MEAN SITTING STILL.

    IT DOESN’T MEAN YOU CAN’T THINK ABOUT ANYTHING.
    Too many cliched articles I read made me think it had to be that way. And there are definitely styles of meditation where that is what you’re supposed to sit still & not think about anything. A lot of people like meditating like that, & there’s nothing wrong with it.
    Guy Throwing Confetti at his face celebrating
    But there’s more than one way to meditate. That’s what a lot of these articles had left out. So I started learning what had been left out. I learned about other things people did to meditate. Some people did dancing or walking meditations, where they moved in some way while meditating. Some people listened to music. Some people did a positive visualization or envisioned their day being awesome. Some people actually got more benefits from meditating in a loud environment than a quiet one.
    & that’s when it hit me.

    MEDITATION DIDN’T MEAN SITTING STILL & NOT THINKING.
    ALL IT REALLY MEANT WAS LETTING MY MIND CHILL THE EFF OUT.

    All this time, I actually HAD been meditating. I just hadn’t put the label of “meditation” on it because it wasn’t boring.
    So every time I lied in bed with my eyes closed listening to music & really feeling the song, it counted. Every time I took a quiet walk through a forest not thinking about anything in particular, it counted. Hell! Even when I was trying to go to sleep & I envisioned myself being in the peaceful world I created in my mind, it counted.
    I took this new revelation of what meditation meant, & I ran with it. I started using the Insight Timer app EVERY MORNING for five minutes. I started in the beginning of August 2017, I still am using it every day now. It’s become one nice, peaceful, non-negotiable part of my morning routine.
    What I do during the five minutes varies. Sometimes I listen to the nature sounds. Sometimes I picture a scene & maybe even have a little story that goes along with it. Sometimes I build up positive feelings about how my day’s going to go & picture it working out perfectly (like I read somewhere that Tony Robbins does). Sometimes I just let my mind wander & think about whatever it wants to without me purposely thinking about anything. Sometimes I try to go back to sleep.
    But I do it every day. & I’ve kept this habit up for eight months now. AND COUNTING.
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    Do I see any benefits from it? I feel like I do. I think it makes me a little calmer & lets my brain recharge a little bit more. If nothing else, it’s a nice peaceful way to start my day. It adds value to my life, which is why I still do it.

    So even if you’re like me & your brain hates being put in the corner & you think mediation isn’t for you, it doesn’t mean your mind is effed up or that you can’t meditate.

    You just haven’t found the best way for you to meditate yet.
    Experiment. Play with it. Have fun with it.
    & while you’re at it, break out of the meditation cliche box & come up with your own definition for your previously dreaded “meditation“.
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  • SEE, NOT FEELING THAT GIVES ME FREEDOM – The Ashlee Craft Show – Episode 037 – Poetry


    In Episode 037, I read a poem from one one of my most recent poetry books, “The Walls Were Gray”, titled “SEE, NOT FEELING THAT GIVES ME FREEDOM.” Hope you enjoy it!

    The Walls Were Gray
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    SEE, NOT FEELING THAT GIVES ME FREEDOM

    the sky was dark blue dark blue / evening light window looking out at the lake / the flashes of light upon the water I used to look out at them & the fresh alive air would flow in through the holes in the screen & I would feel like I wasn’t sitting on the island all by myself / dark blue dark blue / I walked up the stairs to the room & the lighting was warm / Antioch, at night blue walls single lamp in the corner it was dim the closet was yellow / workshop, my dreams covered the walls when I was an endless creator / they were yelling downstairs now but I was rising slowly exhausted & ready to sleep / I found myself outside, finally stretching my legs & feeling the late afternoon sunshine warm & bright / they said it was going to rain today but they were wrong / the air was warm & crisp like the end of summer, like the end of summer that one year / fall autumn air queen suicide & rebirth in February into something greater / I was so happy suddenly back then that it scared me / the air had seemed so lonely / she asked me about it & I finally revealed an honest piece of myself more peace of mind / “it was never very interesting to me” I told her “my Work was always more interesting & still is” / I told her I couldn’t wrap my head around the idea of constantly chasing them, hoping they would notice me / couldn’t understand why anyone would want to do that be that way / technically it’s more normal but it was never the drumbeat I danced to / this morning I was compelled towards the radio / “I will get by” was playing / note, a year ago said I listened to that & read TOUGH TIMES DON’T LAST & even though things were terrible for me, I felt a lot better / (why does it always seem like things are terrible? not true) / then some song about dancing to the beat of the music played & the morning looked less gray / I read their article & realized the problem / even in my otherness I was still being forced into feelings I didn’t feel / the obligation was strong everywhere around me everyone was screaming out the words & every book proudly displayed it on its cover & the newspapers all wrote about it & every song found it sublime to ramble on ramble on / everyone I knew – it was their primary topic. what had happened. what they would do. how to find one. / I was being forced into feelings I didn’t feel because I felt I wouldn’t belong if I didn’t feel them / but I don’t feel them, not in that way / I can befriend all of them without ulterior motives – imagine what a difference that would be – everyone else was always a goal step to reach a particular means to an end / I felt more normal than her even though I felt dried up & frigid but that was the way the computer was wired & the tree roots were deeper still / I hugged her, “why is everyone so stressful?”, flung my hands around, she comforted me, I hugged her again / I didn’t have to follow them all down into the rabbit hole / “curiosity never killed the cat” she told me / trees sung quietly in triumph as I wrote a letter with the honest truth & let a pigeon carry it back to its nest / then I walked around the lake & went home, just as the jazz started playing, & I felt better about myself, not having to hide / learning to love the emotional mess

  • 2018 WEEK 14: ACCOUNTABILITY UPDATE

    What I did the week of April 1 – 7 to make 2018 awesome.

    1. Published 3 blog posts.
    2. Released 2 YouTube videos (Episode 041 of The Ashlee Craft Show & released my cover of Crowded House’s song ‘Archer’s Arrows’).
    3. Began editing the book I wrote last year about my Epic Florida Road Trip!
    4. Spent a lot more time sorting stuff in my house & garage to work on becoming more of a minimalist.
    5. Made 6 posts on Instagram.
    6. Reached out to someone successful in acting to ask for advice about agents, jobs, etc.
    7. Reached out to a company about them carrying the shorts I designed.
    8. Uploaded my new song Run Away to Soundcloud!
    9. Submitted my song Run Away to one website with the possibility of it being featured on their website.
    10. Drew 10 illustrations (nine of which are for a book I’m doing!) & 1 design.
    11. Wrote 1 poem.
    12. Put products with my Blobfish design on them on on Society6 Shop!
    13. Wrote 1 short story!
    14. Signed up for the Yes Supply Facebook group for female entrepreneurs.
    15. Asked five successful entrepreneurs that I respect immensely what their #1 tip was for how to get from obscurity to success & two replied!
    16. Created & set up my page on Patreon!

  • 2018 WEEK 13: ACCOUNTABILITY UPDATE

    What I did the week of March 25 – 31 to make 2018 AWESOME.

    Week 13 was very productive! I spent a ton of time cleaning & going through stuff in my garage & house, & I finally made the demo version of the shorts (that I put off for one year) & released the song I’ve been working on for two years!

    1. Released “Run Away”, the song I’ve been working on for two years on iTunes, Amazon, & other digital distributors!
    2. FINALLY made the demo version of my first-ever piece of clothing I designed, so I can begin on the next steps of actually getting it produced! I put this off for more than a year, so it feels great to have it done!
    3. Got rid of a ton more stuff I didn’t need. Sorted through 6 boxes of my stuff & only kept three boxes.
    4. Researched best websites to find acting jobs on & signed up with Actors Access.
    5. Edited more of the images to be used in my Udemy course!
    6. Drew 1 illustration & 4 designs!
    7. Made 3 Instagram posts.
    8. Wrote 1 poem.
    9. Did research on how to become a session musician.
    10. Published 4 blog posts!
    11. Did not do well on my eating healthy goals, but I did excellent on the exercise goals.
    12. Looked into some clothing items I’d like to get in order to help me look more like myself/my vision for myself.
    13. Published 3 YouTube videos.
    14. Signed up to be a brand ambassador for a sunglasses company that I like. Was approved!
    15. Looked into requirements for putting a course on Udemy just to make sure I do everything right while creating my first course!

  • 2018 WEEK 12: ACCOUNTABILITY UPDATE

    What I did March 18 – 25 to make 2018 amazing.

    1. Sorted a lot more of my garage & got rid of a lot more things I no longer needed, as part of my goal of becoming a minimalist this year. Found a ton of stuff to donate!
    2. Recorded a new song, called “I Will Find You”, & mixed it! Soon I’ll be ready to release it! Mixed two other songs I’ve previously recorded, including my cover of Crowded House’s Archers Arrows.
    3. Posted first Fiverr gig EVER! It’s for doing illustrations in my unique style. Set up Fiver profile & added 3 additional gigs (illustrated banner logo, pet portraits, & proofreading). Made a lot of illustrations to be samples for these gigs to show people what they’re getting & to promote the gigs.
    4. Published 1 YouTube videos (Episode 039 of The Ashlee Craft Show)
    5. Made 4 Instagram posts.
    6. Published 3 new products to my online store!
    7. Looked up how to pick a good monologue for acting auditions.
    8. Signed up for Backstage.com. Took new headshots & updated acting resume.
    9. Started editing more of the slideshow images for my Udemy course!
    10. Took another photo for my film photography book.
    11. Considered & brainstormed ways to get acting jobs after I realized how much I wanted to do this.
    12. Applied for 5 acting jobs! Got scheduled for one audition, which I did.
    13. Reconsidered & got further clarity about what kind of LIFESTYLE I want to have, as a whole, instead of just focusing on things that will provide one thing at the expense of others (i.e. making more money at the expense of freedom).
    14. Donated one illustration to a charity with the hopes they’ll want to use it. If they agree, I will link to their website on my website & help promote their charity, & I’ll add the illustration to my portfolio.
    15. Looked up more money making ideas online. Looked into proofreading, part-time, virtual assistant, & entertainment jobs.
    16. Worked on signing up to be a Groupon Merchant.
    17. Colored in five of my illustrations.
    18. Saw Foreigner in concert with the Rock Symphony Orchestra!
    19. Saw Al Stewart, Three Dog Night, Lords of 52nd Street, & Firefall in concert at Ruth Eckerd Hall!
    20. Began reading The Courage to Be Rich by Suze Orman & Psycho-Cybernetics by Maxwell Maltz. Bought a copy of Malcolm Gladwell’s Outliers from the library so now I can finally read it!
    21. Made more strides in owning a home.
    22. Gave my mom a life coaching session to help her level up her life this year too.
    23. Signed up for Zazzle & added 9 products made from 1 design. Signed up for Society6 & added a bunch of products made from 2 designs.
    24. Wrote 1 blog post.
    25. Improved environment by cleaning up clutter in my house & putting items back in their places.
    26. Learned about investing in ETFs & low-cost index funds.